Hide and Seek >.<

I thought I was good at hiding things, my feelings, my thoughts, my actions, but I guess not. I just learnt that they can read me like a book. I don't know if this is a good thing or not. Maybe it is, atleast they know me. Except, the fact is that they say I pretend. That I don't show my true self. I may be 'bi-polar' or two personalities. I don't do this purposely, it's just the way I am when other people are there, other than my family.

Now, this made me realised that I should open up my true self to them :(

Where di I begin? Can i really show myself to them. I'm scared, i'm scared they're gonna think differently of me. I'm scared things will be different. I'm scared , (PERIOD).

But today i found out that they're not like that, they'll stick by you. Be there for you, which is really good.

And I'm very THANKFULL!

this kinda woke me up and snapped the idea out of my head that I can let other people let me in. I don't need to pretend.

Someone told me that I need to show them my other side when I'm with my sister. I need to show them my real side.

The REAL me.

*sigh*

I don't know where to start: I don't know how to start showing my real self. I don't know what to show, what things are that need to be shown or others things which no need to share.

I just don't know.

But starting from now on, I'm going to try. Not gonna pick out things which side of me, they see. I'm not gonna think about it. Just what I feel, I show. I hope!

What things to show:

1. They're gonna see more of my mean side, when something pisses me off.

2. I'm gonna speak my mind.

3. Saputon ba ako. Pero kapag kasama ko sila, wala patient kaau. Which weird kaau.

4. Ipapalabas ko ang anger ko, sabi nila dapat ilabas. So [SORRY] ahead kung sakanila ako mag labas init ulo. LOLS

Anyway, thats all I can think of at this moment. We'll be writing more in the future, when i think of more things.